The goal of this work is, through series of different self-portraits, to show the mental state and generally different emotional stages through the expression of different color tones. The very interesting thing about this topic is that it enters directly into my personal world that I transfer to canvas. Without beautification and glorification, the state of mind is shown as raw and realistic as it is. The topic of the work is a small part of my life, in which I show through a visual diary how an average person/student feels on certain days and faces the inner world that comes out on the surface of the canvas. This goes to the heart of what people generally ask, for example – does an artist have to suffer and have a restless state of mind to achieve the best achievements, is our pain and suffering really our weapons and a label that sticks to us? I am also largely dedicated to raising awareness of body dysmorphia, which is largely present in mine life, as well as in many other people’s lives. I built my painting style through the years of study, and in this work I turn to painting, with a somewhat illustrative approach to carving and perfecting the vision with which I wanted to present my theme in an appropriate way. With portraits and color expression, I want to show how the mental state affects the artist and his work, that is – me. A line of golden color runs through certain works, which can be seen as an aura, but also in general as a personal stamp of my work style, which leads to a fluid sequence of images.